sacred & luxurious

embodied awakening pathways

join me for a 90 minute live virtual circle of transmission, practice and play. friday, may 6th, 11am est.

she doesn’t want to be forced. she is done with all the pressure. she comes forth only in pure presence. in love and service and devotion. under my full protection and care. if i ask her to perform for you, for anyone, she disappears - leaving me feeling more like a shell and deeply less alive. so i have learned patience, honor, and care. to which she responds easily.

she loves silk pajamas, big shiny diamonds, and bare naked feet in the middle of the woods. she is hungry for god and goddess. for subtle body vibration. for the full glimpses of awakening. she lusts after it, is filled completely by awake awareness, has eternal wisdom and clarity.

i was always denying her, asking her to be silent while i sat in some specific meditation thinking cold and dry and detached was the way. i woke to her slowly. at the rate my mind would allow me to open to this truth, a pleasure inclusive pathway to awakening.

to realize that pleasure, luxury, and spirit were all wrapped up together. the vibrating pulse of life force as embodied human. to realize that numbing pain doesn’t work, detaching from pain doesn’t work, feeling pain ALONE doesn’t work. pain is here entwined with the deepest of beauty, the richness of orgasmic pleasure, an embodied awakening that enlivens FULLY. a complete experience of feeling. bliss, joy, pleasure, pain, death, life. yes.

big shiny diamonds, bare naked face tilted towards the sun, skin dripping with lake water, meditation aliveness practice. incense twirling through the office we dance, silk camisole drifting again bare skin, velvet leggings softest rub as my palms touch my thighs. finding my seat. hand to heart center and womb. eyes gently close. awareness rooted into the great mother, into the womb space, and rising up the backline of the body. the central channel, the mother channel, the vast spacious sky in the center of the blood and tissue and bones that hold me.

form, formless, arising. love sex god magic awakening pleasure luxury tears dirt blood the whole thing. the whole whole thing.

i’ve been hiding. but not quite hiding, just only revealing the parts i thought you might be ok with. i’ve been avoiding rejection. afraid that you wanted only the seated practice, only fully clothed, only the austere. i walk this life as oracle, deeply devoted to the pathway of our embodied awakening, and i thought in order for others to believe this truth i had to hide facets of soul from you. and perhaps, for some of you, i did. and that is ok.

but when i lock eyes with her in my mirror i know she is tired of being bland. she came for full bodied, unburdened, expression. she came to be ALIVE. she is a stand for integrity and transparency and authenticity on the path to love compassion awakening. and if i keep hiding i am out of integrity with my soul dance. i am performing and pretending.

i’ve been wanting to share all of this but i was pushing her to do it. “you should you should,” i was demanding. so she went deeper inside of me. she refuses to perform. she is only real. it was when we locked eyes again in the mirror, deeply in love, that she arose - like liquid light, water and fire. filled my body vessel. ready to be revealed.

her liberation, my liberation, my embodied awakening, is my offering of service to the world. i believe in the universal body. my body is the body of all beings. i breathe in service of all beings. i move in service of all beings. i meditate in service of all beings. we are not separate entities, we are collective constellation, a murmuration of humanity, animal, nature, great mother, cosmos - everything.

i invite you to practice these pathways with me. bring your silk pajamas, your collection of free birds, your unwashed hair and favorite emerald ring. bring your love of top self martinis and snake skin stillettos. bring your hemp pants on the meditation cushion four hours a day. bring all of her and all of you. pleasure, pain, practice. luxury, sex, abstinence. lush lips, bare feet, womb journeys. here, in deep loving liberation, we explore sacred & luxurious embodied awakening.

the sacred & luxurious circle will be recorded for replaying or if you cannot attend live.